i was nvr a person who dwells on the past.
or at least NORT for the past rest of my life.

actually i was feeling very okay today
because had a lot of crappy fun with gLace.

but dunno why, after watching tian wai fei qian,
felt very down all of a sudden.
it always seem to me that he is sth unreachable
and i could only admire from afar.

when tt haoqi was marrying the other woman,
and the girl he used to like started saying: its all too late. etc

suddenly it occured to be that it was all to late too.
too many too lates..
uncountable "too late"s.
it was fate.

but what was most impt was that why could i nort forget it.
or maybe him.

didnt feel like laughing
didnt feel like frowning.

was watching the Project superstar fan shen sai
when somehow or what,
i was listening to them singing
and i started crying.

ever since he annouced his departure,
the tap of my tears was turned on.

when my parents just scold or reprimand me,
i cry.

things didnt use to be this way.

maybe like what grace said,
i am a love addict.
severe addiction to love.
causing abnormal jealousy(frm book)
and unwanted depression(frm me)

frankly,
i dunno who i wan to be.
i couldnt figure out whats my purpose in life.
i couldnt see the path ahead of me.

maybe its what all teenagers face.
or maybe like what the Lao fu zi(from tian wai fei xian)
said: Its better not to see through life.

or.
maybe its just pms
lol.
think its coming soon....
but hope not tmr cuz im going swimming!!

lol.

dun feel like doing anything..
dun feel like feeling anything.
where is he.

9:19 PM ·